life is what happens when you're busy making other plans

it's true. for good things, but also bad ones.
there are a lot of decisions i have to take these days, and places to go, and stuff to do. and i relized i suck in this field. i'm shaking like a jelly in the face of important decisions i have to take or that others take.
i'm feeling good i guess. i needed a time to just relax, forget about everything that i have to do, must do, should do... i've relaxed, tried to go back to the things that made me feel good, enjoyed my time, shared stories, drank beer and wine, made pictures... i'm good, for now
but tomorrow... it will start again...whole school and @ and responsibilities stuff and i hope im gonna be able to keep up the spirit i have now.
and then the whole insane thing with the erasmus will start. i'm shakin', but keeping a clear, positive attitude.
and then 'rru an 'iuk will move together. and though i like the ideea from some points of view, i have a wierd negative feeling about it. hope i'm gonna figure out what it is.
and then andrei's father will have to get well from the surgery, and i'm gonna have to keep up his spirit and be there for him, give him all of me.
and finally... i'll start my new treatment and hope i'm not gonna have to take it from the start with the other ovary i have left...

so there are a lot of changes ahead, but it's gonna be oooooook... i'm a big girl, i can handle it.

so dont worry about what u were doing, are doing, or will be doing, about the changes ahead, however frightening they are... just live it as much as you can, leave the future plan aside, drink some wine, smoke some weed whatever u gotta do and just relaaaaaaaaax :x :)
(yes, this is a message for you:P)